Words of the Mad

在世界的某一个角落，应该有个属于我的人吧。 只希望他能快点儿出现，分享我的喜怒哀乐，分享我生命中的点点滴滴。 就是那么简单而已。

老实说，我也没有很积极地在寻找这个人。 总是喜欢一个人躲在自己的小小房间，对着电脑，听听歌，赖赖床，静静地思考。 很多人寻寻觅觅，都未必能找到生命中的那个人。 相比之下，我的机会似乎更渺茫。 晚年孤寂的话，也只能怪自己了。

他究竟会在哪里出现呢？ 在街上？ 购物中心？ 世界之大的网际网络？ 我应该从哪里开始找？ 单凭感觉就能知道他就是我生命中的那个人吗？ 天时地利人和，几时才会对啊？ 快二十三岁的我，似乎开始躁急了。 伤心难过，心情低落时，真的好希望有个人在身旁。

生命中最长做的一件事，可能就是等待吧。 等吃饭，等工作，等睡觉，等等等。也只有等，才能得到你想要，或想做的事吧。 福建人有一句话，“等久就有”。 用在生命中，也蛮恰当地。

现在的我，也只能慢慢地等。 等待着某个人出现，让我的生命更完整，更丰富。

请忽怪我在这里喃喃自语。 星期六的夜晚，没有生命中的那个人的我，也只能在这个私人空间里，发发牢骚，解开心中的郁闷，等待着该发生的事，发生。

人生嘛，就只有等待而已。

I’m finally blogging again. Was simply too disgusted with my previous orange-y layout to blog. I like this current one better; featuring my favourite X-Men!!! The 3rd (and final) instalment of the X-Men movie series opens tmr, though I’ve already caught the sneaks today. Haha! Amazing! Will talk about it in a later entry.

Quite a few things happened during this period of absence. For one (and two), my applications to NTU and NUS are rejected, leaving me zilch options to study in a full-time local U after completing my National Service (in August this year!!!). Didn’t apply to SMU since I didn’t take the SATs, not that there are any degrees of my interest.

Off to the working society, I will.

Contemplating of securing a position in my current office (where I’m serving my National Service), where the environment is comfortable and flexible enough for me to take up a part-time degree. Moderate chances of doing so since I didn’t perform too badly (above average, I’d say) during my short stint here (1.5 years!). The major drawback is that I’m not a law degree-holder and thus might not be competent enough to take up this full-time position, where the workload is probably double (make it triple) of what I’m doing right now.

Still, the internal management is kind enough to give me a chance to prove myself. Firstly, I’ve been tasked to look thru and familiarise myself with the lecture slides (the people here give basic law lectures to officers-in-training) and subsequently present it in front of the internal top management.

Simply nerve-wrecking just by the thought of it.

Imagine, giving a law lecture to a group of legally-qualified professionals, by ME, a law diploma-holder who barely scraped through with the number of Cs achieved for the poly exams. I could’ve just died when I received this piece of news.

Secondly, I’m supposed to write an article on a topic of my choice concerning the scope of work that I’m be doing. Not that I’ve done a lot. In fact, I’m doing the simplest of things that could be done in this area. Anyway, they wanted me to write this article to look at my flair in writing. I better keep in mind about injecting a more personal touch and style into this piece. Or maybe I shouldn’t, in case it gets too unprofessional. Hmm.

Anyhow, the road ahead seems dark. Will be quite a while before I see light again. Meanwhile, I better grab hold of some torchlights to guide my way around. It’s not a great feeling at all, to be lost in the dark. Oh well.